Monday, June 29, 2015

A few things

The summer has been crazy so far. Crazy in a good way. The kids are really busy or the kids are really bored.

They spent a couple weeks at day camp at Ellenberger Park. They didn't like at first, which made me feel bad. But then I remembered they're kids and they don't have to like everything. Everything doesn't have to be good and fun and comfortable. 

Yes, it's hot. Yes, you'll be outside a lot. Yes, kids are going to ask you for your snack money and it will be awkward. Yes, you'll learn the hard way not to feel bad for people and give them all your snack money. Yes, sometimes being the nice kid can be a bad thing. It can make you an easy target. 

But what they have learned at camp is how to stick up for each other. And for me. Amelia was teased for a few different things. And I teared up a little when she told me the way Madeline stood up for her and held her hand and took her to the camp counselor and wiped her tears and hugged her and stayed by her side. Shit I'm crying again. 

And I saw the excitement to see how I would react when one of the kids at camp was making fun of my hair. And I saw their confusion when I told them people can't make "you white people" comments to my kids or they will suffer the wrath of the crazy mother. 

And I've seen them grow up a little, grow closer together and grow away from me a little. And that's ok because they need to do that. 

Also, Peter Pan. They learned some acting and performed Peter Pan. Which, ironically is about never growing up. The opposite of what is happening right now in real life. 

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Clean little teeth

Claire had her first dentist appointment today.

She got to watch her sisters and daddy go first.

She got to brush and play with the big fake teeth. She got to see all the instruments before they used them on her. 

And most importantly she got to be told no cavities!

Oh and as thought the new toothbrush and stickers were pretty cool too. 

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Took my kid to work

Earlier this week, in the morning while we were getting ready (well I was, she was eating a cereal bar in my bed and watching cartoons) Claire says to me "mom, do you have to go to work today or can we stay together?"

So many feelings.

Most days I wish I could stay with all three of them but I can't. I have to just enjoy every single second that I DO have with them, instead of be sad about the ones I don't.

Today I did actually get to take Madeline to work with me. "Bring your kid to work day" 2015. 

They look thrilled don't they! But cut them some slack, it's summer break and they are at work lol.

She didn't actually spend the day with me. There were activities planned for the kids all day by our Happiness team. 

But I did get to have lunch with her.

And she came back to work with me for a while at the end of the day. 

She wants to be a NICU nurse, probably not she learned much today to help that - but I'm glad she got the experience.


We spent a lot of time outside today.

We slept in...but I wanted to make sure we could enjoy all the sunshine.

Madeline and I ran to Wal-Mart to get a new umberella for the outside table. We ended up coming home with a little pol too. It was a huge hit. 

The girls added water to their sidewalk chalk to make an amazing paint-like concoction. I didn't get a photo though. 

After a full day of playing I had the great idea to go to a movie...we all wanted to see Jurassic World so we decided to try it with Claire. A friend warned me against but it worked out great! She loves dinosaurs and fell asleep before it got crazy. 

Exhausting and wonderful day, thankful for my family. 

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Seeing Jesus

I remember seeing this wood block word sculpture thing as a kid. 

Granted it didn't have the statue behind it to give the "puzzle" away.  But I remember not being able to tell what it said. 

I don't know why I couldn't see it...the angle, my height, my brain function. Is this memory from before I could read?

Now I can't unsee it.

Just like I learned to see Jesus in this wood block, I'm learning to see him everywhere. 

Problem at work? Kids driving you crazy? Doubting myself?

A raise at work? Kids being so angelic it's scaring you? Seeing God's faithfulness in an answer to a prayer?

There's Jesus in all of it. Whether it's good or bad and we see it then or not. He. Is. In. It. 

Psalm 46:10 says "Be still, and know that I am God." and in Exodus 14:14 "The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

Seems easy enough, but something I tell myself over and over each day. "Be still". He is in it. Worrying or trying to make things happen, for you or others, can often get in way of his plan. This doesn't mean sit back and get complacent. But being still helps us sit back and reflect on what is really going on in the bigger picture.

We're all looking for Jesus. Whether we want to admit or not. Whether we know we're looking for him or not. What are you seeking that could really be Jesus? 

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Growing up

Today Amelia had her end of year field trip and Claire had a "moving up" program at school. 

The morning started off hectic...Amelia left her sack lunch in the car and I couldn't make it back to school before they left, so I ended up taking it to the field trip place, Survive Alive. When I got there, they didn't open for 45 minutes. Ugh, thought I was going to get to work much later then I wanted BUT found a nice employee who said he'd make sure he got her lunch. 

They went to the park and played. Nick met them there and took lots of pics for me. 

Thankful they had nice weather to be at the park, they had a great time! 

5:30 dinner at daycare, then 6:30 program.

Claire was the loudest of course! Tried to post a video but it won't work, so just trust me she was yelling :) 

And also took a deep, deep bow at the end. Loudest and proudest that is for sure!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Lunch date

I went to have lunch with Amelia at school today. We took this "us-ie" in the car this morning. It's hard to believe she's almost done with 2nd grade.

Every morning when we turn into the school "unbuckle get your bag on! Hug ya momma" it's a little jingle we've created and even Claire sings along. 

I picked up her favorite - Jimmy John's slim 5, BBQ chips and diet coke. That girl and her diet coke are after my own heart. 

Me, Amelia, Sophia and Merika. 

Other friends...can't remember all the names sheesh! The middle one is Evalyn. 

Amelia and her drumming buddy Nathan. They do beats together, as Amelia would proudly tell you.

She had her last Spanish class with her favorite teacher, SeƱorita Elliott. Amelia had her for three years and loved her dearly.

She's a special kid. And I'm not just saying that because she's mine. She's so determined and strong and just, a beaming ball of energy and excitement. I love her enthusiasm for life. 

And I love that she's not "too cool" to let her mom kiss her at school (yet) or be embarrassed of my dumb jokes (yet) or hold my hand in the hallway (yet). 

And I love how excited she was to see me today. I am so thankful to be her mom. 

After Taco Tuesday, playing outside, the pet store for meal worms for the turtles and getting ready for tomorrow the day just seems to slip away. 

Then, just before bed - I was putting some laundry away in my room and she was playing a game on her iPad when out of the blue..."I'm glad you're my mom"

Me too kid, me too. 

Monday, June 8, 2015

Because I love you

"Push me mommy" she says as we head down the driveway on her bike. "Pedal, Claire, you can do it!"

"No I can't, push me mommy"

"Claire I won't do it for you but I'll help you"

One of the hardest parts of being a parent is letting my kids do it on their own. I know they need to so they can learn, but I want to take care of them and do it for them. I mean it's usually just easier too!

But that's not love. That's not building their confidence and character and self-esteem. 

I won't do it for you, but I will always help you. 

Because I love you. Because I know you can do it. Because I believe in you more than you'll ever know and I want to help you have that same belief in yourself.